Operating Capacity: 88%
Energy Reading: 82%
Today's Journal Quote:
Life is never easy for those who dream.
Deeply committed to the positive and the good, yet taught to believe there is evil in them, Healers can come to develop a certain fascination with the problem of good and evil, sacred and profane. Healers are drawn toward purity, but can become engrossed with the profane, continuously on the lookout for the wickedness that lurks within them.
Oh, how can I explain to you, who knows not my heart of hearts, the lands I see in my dreams?
I wonder and I wander the lanes of mind, and my thoughts and feelings cascade over me like tides. The jumble of the past roars over me, and I cannot make sense of my times. Is this the longing of a lonely child? A glimpse of the warm Summer Lands beyond life? Or is it something more? Lost memories of a life I cannot remember living?
Why do I dream for land Ive never been to? I close my eyes and I can see the warm sun wash over the green valleys, and it glints off the warm river running beneath me. And the cool clean winds run past and over and beneath me. The lands of my heart are spread out around me, and my heart breaks with the joy of seeing it again, and it breaks with the sorrow of knowledge that I am not there.
Where is it that I belong? This world, this reality, I feel like I do not belong. Like I am not from this world, not from this time. Sometimes its okay. I can see the world with a newfound sense of wonder, like through a childs eyes. The wonder of the winds and the sun and the sky, the autumn leaves, and the beauty of anothers hands.
But other times, it is not okay. The shadows creep in and I feel alone amongst the crowds. There is no wonder, no joy, in this alien world. Only fear, and sorrow, and loneliness. And at those worst of times, that is when the Black Voice speaks in my heart. It instills doubt and guilt and fear. Sometimes, I cannot make it go away. I cant cut that Blackness from my heart.
Is it me? Is it that I am the one who believes such evil things, and who says such cruel and hurtful things? I fear this. I fear, that in my darkest corners of my soul, that I am some black creature. That I am not the person people think I am. Not the person I pretend to be.
But I digress.
So hows the local sports team?











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"Running Is What You Do When The Plan Fails!!!"
"LookLookYou'reNotLooking!!!" ~Laura
Like Fuzz and Skulls? [link]
And we should go hiking at Starved Rocks, because it's in your state and it's awesome.
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I'm a Dragon, your a Dragon. They're a Dragon, all of you are Dragons!
Rawr! Hiss! Growl!
Does my breath smell of rotting corpses? C'mon, take a wiff. I won't eat you, I promise. Well...maybe a lick on your face wouldn't hurt. I want a small taste.
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"Iron, Iron! It worked, it worked! I did what you told me and he DIED!"
Me, playing Gears of War and learning to use the shotgun
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Tic Tak To three in arow i win again Naruto-Ebisu
Naruto:T-T...This isn't fair i want a rematch
Ebisu: i won 130 times give up Hokage-Ssama
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